Damn. Blew past my new DLL.. Overleveraged. Tilt. Same old shit. It’s tiring. I’m negative now. How long will it take to get to my FIRE number? Never at this rate.
It’s infuriating at times, going through the motions, the process and just not finding success. Not just that, but failure. But in all honesty, when I follow my process, things work out. And if they don’t, I’m zen. Come what may. But the process has been hit or miss. I don’t have enough time to go through the process. I don’t have enough time to wait around. My problem is that I need this fucking money. Now. Yesterday. Crushing student load debt. Mortgaged out the ass. Not to mention expensive hobbies and travel tendencies….
Why the fuck do I live in this expensive ass house? In this expensive ass neighborhood? In this expensive ass city? I’m fucked. Unless I hit a lick. It has been a shit show. I’m just tired. Grinding is not worth it. I don’t have enough time to go through my process. To reflect. To chill, read, and observe. Next week we’ll see. Process over P&L.
Someday I’ll finally become a flaneur.
Bet.
18.8.23 -$7,500
Total = -$3,160
Goal = $7,500,000